Over Time

The age, I’m dealing with, is critical. It’s a juncture, where I try to be quiet for most of the hours (the working hours to be precise). Though, there is a time when I speak the most, particularly in office, the lunch time that doesn’t really last an hour.

Anyways, coming to the point. Over time, I have realized. I’m no more who I used to be 6 months back. What changed me is a job. (Well, training which recently converted into a full-time role).

I have explored potentials, I never thought I would possess. What I am today was not me 6 months back, what I am today is someone who I never wanted to be. Not that I have structured some bad capabilities, but it’s just something I can’t really explain.

I was okay, 6 months back, I’m still doing okay.

But something has changed. A bigger part of me, maybe for a better version of me. Not sure!

What amazes me is that previously, I thought sitting quiet for so long is not my thing, but over time I realized I CAN-NOT talk and still be fine. It doesn’t take much.

I still have an accent of a child, as someone reminded me today.

Somedays, I think what it really takes to talk like an adult, or do I even want to?

Why are some things always expected out of you, even without consent?

I still have the past me in me, but not in all senses. Something, I’m not proud of. All I pray for is to instill or maybe bring back some of my past traits and activities, one of them being, writing here :)

Wish me luck!